Mar 22, 2016

Dear, ARAB

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Izinkan aku menuliskan tentangmu.
Ini bukan tentang sudah berapa lama kita saling mengenal, melainkan tentang bagaimana kau memperlakukanku sejak kita saling mengenal.

Terima kasih, karenamu aku kembali percaya jika jatuh cinta yang bahagia ternyata masih ada.

Sebelum denganmu, hatiku dipatahkan oleh pengkhianatan dan kekecewaan.
Dan kau, kembali membuatku percaya; jika denganmu, aku sanggup menyembuhkan.

Mungkin aku terlalu cepat menjatuhkan hatiku kepadamu, tapi percayalah, aku jatuh cinta tanpa mengenal alasan apa-apa.
Jangan kau tanya mengapa, tanyakan ini pada Tuhan pemilik cinta. .

Aku tak pernah berencana kepada siapa akan jatuh cinta. Tapi semesta menuntunku ke arah hatimu.

Maaf, jika aku telah berani mencintaimu dengan sehebat ini.
Jika kau izinkan, aku ingin belajar memahamimu pelan-pelan.
Bila nanti kau temukan alasan untuk pergi.

Ingatlah bagaimana kerja semesta mempertemukan kita. Jika aku salah, perbaiki saja aku. Jangan jadikan alasan apa pun untuk meninggalkan.
Kita buktikan pada semesta, jika kita hebat karena saling cinta.

Mari bersama, perbaiki segalanya.
Kita ada, sebab Tuhan percaya kita bisa menjadi lebih baik lagi :)
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Jan 31, 2016

I know you're about to cry but hey, chin up lil' girl 💪

Aug 25, 2015

Thank you :)

surprise me, you still read this blog! dunno what's or who's leading you here, thank you, really appreciate that.

well, i've been ups and downs in my postgrad life. been thru many things while i'm off post something here. hey, hope you're doing good in everything you do today :)

you know, i dunno men, mostly. but i kno these guys. and my dad. of course. exclude my brother ok (i dunno him. i dunno, we always have different thoughts, fights sometimes, we're just never get along). i'll talk about my only one bro later. my dad, oh you've read some of my posts about him.

ever since i have boy friends in kindergarten, i always thought that the best relationship i have with them is friendship, too lux maybe, classmate-ship. yup, that's it. haha. couldn't be more.

i thought... (oke i'll make it simple, you know this time i'm feeling like i'm talking to my brain searching for the perfect word to describe what i feel) i'm different. i was too clumsy when talking to them. well, i am still. i have different sense of humor, i don't get their jokes. pfft. thought they're serious but they're not. thought they're nice but they're ass. thought we cannot sit together and have a nice conversation.

but these guys, change me. three of my few best guys. Yeah, I can count with my own fingers good boy friends i know.
hey you three! Rahmat, Rahman & Sultan
(you happy and surprise right? i kno haha)

thanks for making me feel welcomed sitting, chatting and laughing with you, guys..

i know you're not always nice in handling me haha but thanks for ALWAYS be there when Sadness takes control my brain and Joy leaves the headquaters.

thanks for treating me like a lady, uh well, "half-lady", i suppose.

i always wonder why you guys want to talk with me? (You'll call it a stupid question right? haha) most of the time, i don't laugh when you joke. i give you hard-to-digest suggestions/ answers. i'm boring.

anyway, thanks for having me as your friend.
you're not perfect, i know. i don't need perfect men to be my friends.