transisi ..

Here i am. Again. In front of my black axioo.

Less than 41 minutes before the first of August.

Here i am. Like a zombie in front of a machine and enjoy Untouchable and I’ll Stand by you by..... (omg! I forget the singer! Yeay, zombie doesn’t have brain right??)

Well, let see at the previous. What i’ve done after my 19’s party? It’s almost a month. And, hard to say,, NOTHING. Nothing’s important. Actually, i’m trying to make some plans and begin to work it out. But, i just too lazy to make any commitment. That’s the point! (how i can realize then??).

I’m trying to pray on time and always think about the advantages from it. But at the same time i also think, why we should pray? And it works. That question and my lazyness absolutely obstacle me! Iiissshhh ! so annoy! I need support then. But, i’m lack of support. Hhigs -_-‘

Besides all my failed things above, my ambitions raised at the same time. I wanna be a good debater, good presenter, i wanna teach, i wanna study in Islamic Boarding School, i wanna be a good announcer, be a good educators, wanna GO ABROAD! STUDY IN AUSSIE, USA, JAPAN, GERMANY, UK, SPANYOL, KOREA and many more, wanna join lomonesia, wanna ride a motorcycle to campus, wanna finish my study faster. Hwoooaaaahhh,,, so many! Hard to make it true. But i believe, I CAN !!!!! q^_^p

I JUST NEED SUPPORT!

And also tips to burn my motivation. (urgent!!)

A mont, i didn’t do any great things. Just as usual, or even worse. Maybe i shouldn’t dream too high. Just simple dreams but possible to make it true. But, dreams don’t pay too much! It’s everyone’s right.

Last words, FOCUS YUNN! COMMITMENT AND CONSISTANT. THE MORE YOU WORK, THE MORE NICE YOU’LL GET THE PAID ...

KEEP ON FIRE GIRL!

BELIEVE IT, THERE;RE ALWAYS HOME FOR YOU TO COME BACK IF YOU SAD ..

A’UDZUBILLAHIMINASYAITONIRRAJIIMM.

BISMILLAHIRAHMANIRRAHIIM .

MOVE ON ! DO NOT BE A LAZY GIRL !!!

GBU..

LOVE YOU :*

MY ROOM. DARK. LISTENING ON PRAMBORS VINTAGE BOX

LastdayofJuly | 23.19

DIAN

Everyone has their black side of life.
Snuggle, alone, in their black side. Gaze their faults, at the past. Muse and cry.
Find it in heart to fix it up. But there’s nothing left but wish. Snuggle at the edge of the world and wish..

[3 juli 2010. 11.37 am]

Kali ini gw mau cerita soal adek gw. Ngga bisa tidur kalo ngga nulis ini duluuu..
Kemaren, sekitaran jam 10an pagi, Dian dapat telpon dari KEDUBES Jepang. Si Lala yang ngangkat soalnya gw –yang biasa jadi operator di rumah- lagi mandi. Si mbak-mbak yang nelpon Dian itu bilang kalo dia LOLOS BERKAS beasiswa MONBUKAGAKUSHO. Alhamdulillahhh,,,, gw seneng banget dengernyaahh ^^. Tapi eh, si Dian malah nimpalin gw, “biasa jiy yuunn”. Ternyata dia udah memprediksikan kalo berkasnya itu pasti lolos. Pasalnya, dia daftar untuk program D3 yang standar nilainya itu 8.0, sedangkan nilai adek gw 8.4.. Kalo gw pikir tanggung banget ngambil D3 buat beasiswa, kenapa ngga langsung S1 aja. Nah, untuk hal ini adek gw punya jawabannya sendiri. Katanya, menurut pengalaman kakak kelasnya yang udah sering ikut seleksi beasiswa MONBUKAGAKUSHO, tes tertulis S1 itu jauh jauh jauuuhh lebih sulit! Cuma peserta OSN yang dapat medali emas aja yang bisa lulusin tesnya. That’s why, adek gw lebih milih jalur aman tapi tetep ngga bisa berleha-leha.
Informasi yang gw dapat dari adek gw, adek gw dapat info dari si mbak-mbak itu:

• Waktu pengambilan surat pengantar untuk tes yang menyatakan bahwa orang yang bersangkutan udah lolos berkas mulai tanggal 5 Juli 2010 sampai 9 Juli 2010.

• Pelaksanaan tes tertulis tanggal 13 Juli 2010.

• Pengumumannya, masih lamaaaaaaa.... Januari 2011.

• Berangkatnya,,,, kalo lolos tes tertulis yaa jelas 2011. Tapi ngga tau bulan berapa.

Haduuuh, semua orang sepertinya udah selangkah di depan gw. Gw aja masih stuck di sini dengan segala peraturan yang kalo gw paksain sesuai mau gw, dosanya dunia akhirat. Gw masih sibuk memperbaiki diri, memperbaiki masa lalu. Sementara orang-orang sudah menjalankan program jangka panjang untuk masa depannya.




well, ME?

still a big QUESTION! -_-'